Sure Ash the Weave!

This is my first post for the "new" year. Here goes........

My life is now a crazy rollercoster reeling to places and situations that I wouldn't have dared imagine. But what can I say, fate and bit of serendipity made the lad. First of all, I'm in the Maskara Dramatics Club. We're gonna stage "Once on this Island" and I'm a storyteller. Whoopee! Love the way I tell the story. If only I wouldn't have to dance as much....

If last year I was having a hard time juggling school and leisure (and everything in between), just imagine how I'm feeling so short of breath everyday. Just think, I forego assignments till the morning, and guess what? Between bites of cereal, I'm frantically banging my head for answers for a tiring English assignment. Then there's Math, and Geom quizzes, and oh you know, highschool life blahblah.

So, in moments of sanity, I stop, and take a look at all the corny jokes I've said (credits to some batchmates, who introduced me on what corniness TRULY is), take a deep breath, and say "Everything will be ok." Mai pen rai. In fact, when the lights have finally dimmed on our "auditorium", I'm going to miss being part of the Maskara, and an unstable life full of exclamation marks.

It's time to go back to researching on psoriasis now. I had to coax my fat ass out of its comfortable position and had to make my eyes wander from the Tonight Show. Oh well, ganyan talaga ang buhaaaaaaay!!!!

idarapartra and sulayman

"don't stop come a little closer..."

It's from Nokia's ad...cool. I don't really like techno...but the song is cool enough (by the way,I'm blabbering...so,don't mind me.)

well anyway....

christmass....woopee?let me yawn first....

WOOPEE!

It's THAT time of the year

December's coming!
Spread the Christmas cheer everybody!!!!!!
Oh yeah, christmas....

I'm getting giddy over my christmas tree!
Woohoo!

Exhaling Again

The afternoon's setting sun unleashed a fury of emotions.

1st:Exhaustion
I had an exhibit hangover.I was tired, seething and quite faked up because of all the dirt accumulated in the exhibit.

2nd:Anxiety and Exhaustion
I lost two things not belonging to me.First was Camille's oversized sunglasses (I'll try to find them! I swear by the glow of the moon!) and oh never mind........

3rd:Emo!
Yup. I Tangaed like there was no tomorrow and I was wondering if my purpose in life was finished and I was bidding my time on earth. Oh, and I freaked out everyone I was talking to by talking nonsense.

4th....
The sky was quietly turning indigo. Me and a friend were talking about stuff. We talked about you-might-not-know-who and who struts in but YMNKW! Haha....well....I was speechless for a whole hour.

I forgot about the exhaustion, the anxiety and my emo phase just faded out into the darkness where it belongs. For just a moment, because of just one moment, I forgot. It's nice to forget. It's nice to leave the past behind, and release that balled up emotions into the twilight.

I'm rambling again. It's time to heal. What this week has done, fate is trying to undo. It's time to heal.

When screaming just won't do!

I have paint all over my hands. My eyes are itchy as hell. I should do important things but, like what I more often than not continue to do, wish to throw them all away to the abyss where they came from. Oh wait a minute, am I being the grump of the day? Youbetchabygollygeewhiz!

These past two days, my emotions are like a swinging pendulum (read:emotional wreck). I laugh one minute and go completely blank and seething the next. I go hyper and can whiz through tasks before you can say "up!" then I suddenly realize.....what the fake!!!

All because of one event: The Exhibit (brings to mind a museum of strangled body parts and laughing hyenas). I can just hear the screams of anguished students crying out for justice.

Oh, and yesterday, I was absolutely furious at two pigs who were bothering me till kingdom come. They kept making fun of me (so elementary, pare!) and were at my back all the time (and to think, I was just having my usual tanga before class!). I was so angry that I borrowed a paper from my classmates and wrote the words "pigs!" and "hell incarnates" over and over again. PIGS! HELL INCARNATES! Please, the two pigs of 2 Gold, don't bother me and get a life!

Moving on with this angry post of mine, what the hell is happening to our classroom! It's as blank as the wall I keep staring at! I hate to say it but...I'm so disappointed. I'd rather keep quiet.

No, I won't. Just a few hours ago, I was so drained and quite seething that I literally crumpled to the floor and stared for a few minutes. My classmates thought I was sleeping. Uh no, my mind was just going blank, refusing to take all the harassments encountered during the day.

I sigh, droop my head and silently, wistfully, look back at the good ol' days.

got soul

"On the field I remember you were incredible
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah
On the field I remember you were incredible
Hey shut up hey shut up yeah"

So I said, EDSA II, ya know? I am so weird and rambling.

I got soul but I'm not a soldier.

Sink with an open drain!!!

"My head is a box full of nothing...and that's the way I like it!"

So tomorrow's the day. I don't really feel anxious or I dunno have a "please-let-time-stop" moment. I JUST WANT TO GET THIS OVER WITH! It all comes down to tomorrow. It's ok, I'm not hyperventilating. For those who know lang. Whatever happens, I'll take it all in a stride.

In other news, I don't have a cellphone for the time being. It's really blissful ya know, not having to worry about text messages or replying. Somewhere deep in my subconcious mind, I might be regretting the fact that I'm cut off from the mobile world. Let me think....nah. I'm happy I don't have a cellphone.

"So please...baby please.....open your eyes and catch my disease..."

I'm done watching the complete Season 2 of Grey's Anatomy. Dili man hanging! I'd like to say, I'm sick of Mer and Der's relationship. Move on for God's sake! Married lagi si Der, ay na palag! Oh and Izzie puts the ass in "embarrass", she threw off her whole career just for a dead guy, and she tried to help him in the SICKEST way.

Cristina Yang is still the best. Go Dr. Yang! You're my anti-stupidity!

I've learned a few lines from dear Grey:
"I am a sink with an open drain. Anything you say goes right through me!"

I figure I'll use that for some of you guys....


All in all, I'm babbling, ranting, raving, spewing forth useless words that mean nothing. Oh well, I am a sink with an open drain..... :D